everlasting love song ever!

i loooooove this song so bad. wondering my husband someday sings this song for me in our wedding uuuuu :3

K-Ci and Jojo - All My Life

I Will Never Find Another Lover
Sweeter Than You
Sweeter Than You
And I Will Never Find Another Lover
More Precious Than You
More Precious Than You
Girl You Are..
Close To Me You're Like My Mother,
Close To Me You're Like My Father,
Close To Me You're Like My Sister,
Close To Me You're Like My Brother
And You Are The Only One My Everything
And For You This Song I Sing....

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

I'd Send You All That I'm Thinking Of........Baby

Said I Promise To Never Fall In Love With A Stranger
You're All I'm Thinking Of
I Praise The Lord Above
For Sending Me Your Love
I Cherish Every Hug
I Really Love You

All My Life (Ohhhh..Baby, Baby)
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I...That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Hope That You Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

You're All That I Ever Know,
When You Smile All My Face Always Seems To Glow,
You Turned My Life Around,
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down,
You're All That I've Ever Known,
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down
Say...You're All That I've Ever Known
When You Smile My Face Glows
You Picked Me Up When I Was Down
And I Hope That You
Feel The Same Way Too
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

And All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God
That I ..That I Finally Found You
All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
Yes, I Pray That You Do Love Me Too

(Fading)
And All My Life
I Prayed For Someone Like You
And I Thank God That I...That I Finally Found You.....

majoring

dulu kalo ditanya orang "jurusan apa di ITB?" Gue cuma bisa jawab "ehem,ITB kalo tahun pertama masih fakultas,gue FTTM (fakultas teknik pertambangan perminyakan,bagi yang gatau)"
and noooow,kalo ditanya "jurusannya apa di ITB?" gue udah bisa jawab "TEKNIK PERTAMBANGAN".
yay yay I'm mining engineer to be!
kedengeran agak perkasa ya emang,cewe masuk teknik pertambangan. most of them ya biologi,farmasi,matematika,kesehatan masyarakat. berhubung gue sangat malas dengan biologi,apalagi obat-obatan,apalagi jadi dokter deh ya,ga kepikiran sama sekali dan ga minat. kayaknya dokter di Indonesia udah kebanyakan deh ya,banyak juga yang kerjaannya ga karuan,jadi dokter belom tentu ngejamin buat gue,apalagi belai-belain pendidikan dokter di universitas yang kurang kredibel,kalah sama universitas gede kayak UI sama UGM.
and I'm proud of being a mining engineer. pertama,karena jurusannya ga pasaran dan ga semua universitas punya jurusan ini. kedua,banyak banget SDA yang berpotensi tapi belom dieksplorasi.

semoga di jurusan dalam 3 tahun ke depan bakal lancar-lancar aja,IP naik terus,syukur-syukur bisa fast-track langsung S2,kalo ngga ya kerja dulu 1 tahun,nikah,trus lanjut S2 dibayarin suami :)

survive

It's been almost the 8th months I'm being with my boyfriend. sweetness comes,sweetness go. that's what I named life. we don't know what will happen tommorow,but that all we know is we have to fight with it,whatever will happen someday.
and survival is the most needed of all our fighting. like I do.

I love someone and I survive with him no matter what he behaves,what he has done to me and how slurred. happiness will come in the end of all pains. keep survive,and i'll feel the sweet one.

each relationship must have problems. I have it in mine since I deal a relationship with him. Problem came,problem solved. I try to be tough in small case,but in big one,I'm smiling outside,dying inside. I ever thought to end it all,but my heart doen't want to. surviving is the way I take.

I have my own way of thinking.
treat your boyfriend as 6 years old boy. when he wakes up in the morning,he's with you. but in the morning till noon he plays with his life,his friends,his routinity. let him plays as much as he wants. don't give any prohibition to him. because in the end of everyday,in evening till night when he feels tired playing,he'll come back to you,looks at you,needs your bear hugs and your warm kisses.

happiness in the end must be mine.

happy birthday me

hello I'm 19th now.
much older and wish for wiser me.
too sad I couldn't pass my birthday with my family.
ya,I spent my little time with my boyfriend having dinner. and it goes so unwell. sorry to say dear,but that was my unforgettably bad birthday celebration ever. you made that all too bad that night.
It's okay for me now,even I couldn't ever forget the worst birthday night.
I still love you and I still do till I don't know for sure.
Whatever it takes.
you're still my superboy ever :)

cheating

what's in your head hearing about cheating?
yes. that's a kind of betrayal to someone you call your love. you make another relationship with someone else in case you're still with your boyfriend or girlfriend.

i really hate being cheated. i experienced on it once. and hope it'll be the last too.
and now it happened to my closefriend too.

poor. yes, that's us. someone who've been cheated.

i can't stand why men easily cheat with another.
is that caused of our fault? or they just feel disatisfied with us and then looking for somebody else?
i just can't believe why they, men, easily looking for the new one after what we, girls, have everything done to him.
based on my experience, i always do my best for my beloved. i give everything. everything he wants. i am always there when he needs me. i always do what he wants me to do. then, he cheated. bang. i fell something heavy crash my head. hard to believe and trusting him once again. but i try. one more chance maybe fix it all up.
i do it just because of love. that's the power of love.

but now. my friend experienced it too.
okay, she and her boyfriend are in long distance relationship. but they kept their promises to keep their relationship longlast.
few days ago, her boyfriend has his birthday. and i really know she prepared everything to him. EVERYTHING. she bought a present and birthday cake and she also came to her boyfriend's dormitory to give him surprise party though she'll face chemistry class on the next day. she perfectly done those surprise and i believe that their relationship is gonna be okay.
but see.
her boyfriend cheated behind her. my closefriend get stabbed in the back.
don't ask me whether that was hurt or not because i do feel the same.
we, girls, are not as tough as boys.
we easily crying. we are fragile. we can't hide those feeling.

but why men easily makes our tears fall doown?

teach me

teach me how to understand you your way.
teach me how to believe in you as i used to.
teach me how to throw those negative thinkings away.
teach me how to decrease this fucking feeling.
teach me how to be not possesive in your point of view.

i ain't that tough.
smiling outside but dying inside.
trying to be stronger than yours, it's kind of hard.
trying to be like what you want.
i do my best. but i don't see you do the same.
you could be more than this i'm sure.
but why don't you?

but i still keep my words.
there'll be happiness in the end of our story.
if it's not happy yet.
trust me.
that's not the end.

gue emang ga perfect

sangat annoying begitu ada orang yang tiba tiba kesel jutek atau sensi sama elo entah karena sebab apa. elo gatau harus gimana bersikap karena lo sama sekali gatau salah lo apa. dan ini lagi terjadi sama gue. bahkan sering.

kondisi awalnya semua serba baik aja deh dan sampe tiba saatnya duarr sikap seseorang itu beda ke gue. hell-o gue gatau ada apa ya secara kita lagi baik baik aja dan tiba tiba sikapnya gitu ke gue. ya, lagi lagi gue bercerita di blog tentang kekeselan gue ini. sorry.

awalnya dari kemaren. kita smsan biasa sampe malem dan kebetulan ga sempet ketemu di kampus yaudah sampe kosan pun gue sms ga ada kabar sampe ahirnya malem malem gue keluar makan sama temen gue yang kebetulan baru dateng dari bekasi dan minta temenin makan padah besok paginya gue kuis kalkulus. berat hati sebenernya mau pergi tapi karena ga enak sama temen gue itu ya ditemenin lah sampe baru sampe kosan jam stengah 11. gue nyapa cow gue di YM yaa biasa aja sih cuma nanya kenapa dia ga bales katanya hapenya rusak gitu okelah kita YM-an pun sambil ngebahas kalkulus buat kuis besok. sampe akhirnya gue bilang gue baru pulang dari luar blablabla trus langsung beda aja gitu sikap dia. don't know why ya i feel different. gue tanya kenapa pun dia bilang gapapa. okelah dia bilang lagi ga mood termasuk gara gara gue, sampe akhirnya tidur berhubung udah malem juga besok pagi kita kuis.

tadi pagi.
gue samperin dia ke kelasnya mau ngasih kertas kalkulus gitu buat dia belajar. pagi ini udah kayak biasa lagi dan gue pikri udah ga bete lai kan. sampe akhirnya pulang kuliah kita jalan ke gerbang bareng dan sepanjang perjalanan itu kita diem dieman. gue tanya apaaa gitu dan dijawab seadanya jutek pula. apasih ini ngelanjutin bete semalem? bete yang gue tanya pun dia ga jawab.

gue dituntut untuk tau kenapa dia bisa gitu. gue? gue bisa tau darimana karena awalnya kita emang baik baik aja dan ga ada apa apa. gue ga ngerasa juga gue punya salah. ya atau mungkin gue ngelakuin kesalahan yang gue sendiri pun ga sadar. apa salahnya gue dikasitau gue kurangnya dimana, gue perbaki, gue minta maaf, clear semuanya.

oke ini emang bukan hari gue banget kayaknya. mood gue hancur lebur.

semester 2 yaahooo ;)

hai udah lama banget rasanya ga nge-blog :D
ini blog pertama gue di semester 2 gue di ITB. hemm semester baru harus semangat baru. gue ini harus banget ningkatin IP gue di semester 2 ini. IP semester 1 gue, bisa dibilang kurang memuaskan cuma 3.03 ya cukup sh itu sebenernya di atas 3 tapi tipis banget -_- yaa beruntungnya gue ga dua komaan yah cuma temen-temen gue banyak yang ber-IP lebih bagus dari gue. gue ga drop kok gue anggep itu semua pemacu gue buat dapet IP lebih bagus di semester ini :) oran tua gue ga marah sih IP gue segitu cuma ya mereka yakin kalo gue bisa lebih baik dari itu.
faktor-faktor yang bikin IP gue ga maksimal semester ini ya :

1. masih proses adaptasi. cara belajar SMA sama kuliah jelas beda banget mulai dari jam belajarnya yang ga se-intens SMA, dosen yang masuknya seenak ketek sampe tugas yang ga kira-kira banyaknya. pelajaran di bangku kuliah juga banyak beda sama SMA jadi ya emang butuh ilmu lebih banyak sih sebenernya untuk mencerna itu semua dan otak gue semester 1 kemaren belom "panas" kayaknya jadi apa yang gue dapet di kuliah dan menurut gue susah, gue ga ada usaha untuk mengerti itu dan lebih cenderung "yaudahlah pusing amat mikirin" .. itulah jeleknya gue daya juangnya rendah -____-
2. euforia mahasiswa baru. oke peralihan masa dari SMA ke kuliah itu berasa banget di diri gue. di saat lo SMA tinggal sama orang tua segala sesuatunya diatur ga boleh pulang malem atau kebanyakan kegiatan selain sekolah terlebih lagi lo masih berseragam. begitu kuliah. duar itu rasanya kayak ada jerawat yang pecah. lo bakal ngerasa kalo lo udah dewasa sekarang, udah bisa ngatur hidup, waktu, jam main, belajar, pacaran dan segala macemnya sendiri. orang tua lo cuma bisa mantau dari jauh dan yang dituntut elo harus pinter-pinter ngebawa diri. tapiiii jeleknya, terutama cewe nih ya sepenglihatan gue, karena udah ga berseragam tuh mereka *termasuk gue* cenderung merhatiin penampilan. baju apa yang mau dipake, aksesoris apa, sepatu apa, tas apa pokoknya semuanya mau serba matching dari atas sampe bawah. apalagi kalo misalnya ada duit lebih pasti bawaannya beli baju atau aksesoris apa lah akibat gelap mata -_- itu ga bisa dipungkiri karena emang lumrah banget. apalagi kalo lo ketemu cowo yang lo taksir atau gebet di kampus, penampilan lo pasti jadi prioritas yag ga kalah penting sama pelajaran ;)
3. hemm pendekatan sama cowo gue yang sekarang. sebenernya sih ini yaa gimana ya dibilang jatohin nilai ngga juga cuma ya sedikit banyak mengambil peranan lah dalam tidak maksimalnya nilai gue. waktu pendekatan dulu gue dan cowo gue sangat intens berhubungan baik di sms atau facebook lah ya. setiap saat pasti smsan, semua sms dia ga pernah luput gue bales begitupun gue bahkan erkadang kalo lagi kuliah. gue sering ga merhatiin dosen yaa sebenernya gue ga merhatiin dosen karena awalnya emang ga ngerti apa yang dosen gue itu ajarin. udah stuck belajar, gangguin kanan kiri, trus smsan deh ya sama cowo gue ehe ehe ehe :p salah gue sih sebenernya ga bisa misahin waktu kapan gue harus belajar dan kapan harus smsan.
4. kosan gue terlalu menggoda buat ditidurin saat istirahat siang. okee jadwal kuliah gue tuh ngga banget lah ya. kuliah jam 7-11 pagi trus baru ada lagi jam 2-6 sore -____- jadi otomatis 3 jam siang itu gue kosong. temen gue selalu ngajak belajar bareng aau ngerjain tugas bareng gitu lah ya di perpus tiap istirahat siang tapi entah kenapa gue sangat malas yang namanya "bergaul" di perpus. tempatnya ga asik, ya ada sih yangg nyaman enak segala macem tapi ga boleh berisik itu yang gue ga tahan. kalo gue diem-diem aja bawaannya ngantuk ya akhirnya gue putusin tiap istirahat siang gue pati balik ke kosan yang cuma 10 menit lah perjalanan dari kampus gue. nyampe di kosan gue sangat niat belajar sebenernya, tapi apa daya dong kasur gue seakan-akan melambai-lambai menggoda minta ditidurin. ya jadi istirahat siang gue ga pernah produktif dan diisi dengan tidur -_-
5. kebanyakan nonton dan jalan-jalan. hampir tiap minggu gue selalu nonton entah sama temen-temen atau cowo gue. ya otomatis itu ngeganggu atau ngurangin waktu belajar lah yaa makin kesunat aja waktu belajar gue.

resolusi gue semester 2 hehehe gue pengen IP yang jauh lebih baik dari IP gue sekarang dan gue pengen masuk jurusan yang gue mau ya kalo ga pertambangan perminyakan deh ya apa aja deh yang emang lebih cocok sama gue. IP semester 2 gue bagus bokap gue bakal ngasih izin gue liburaaaaaaaaan.
okee semangat semester 2 :)

new year :)

okaaaaay it's my first posting in 2010.
firstly i just wanna say HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 guys wish we all can pass through this year. amin :D

what about your new year's eve? my NYE is sooo disgusting. iyuh. i just spent whole night alone at home. yes alone. my sister spent her NYE with her boyfriend of course. both my brothers spent their night with their fellas. my lovely parents attended their friend's invitation spending that fucking night at their friend's house. me? nyenyenye just make sure that my lovely speedy kept connecting. take the most comfortable position, prepared some meals, and successfully got stuck.

no NYE celebrate with my boy. no one at home. nothing to do. huk huk so sad our NYE celebrate plan cancelled because of his car accident :''''''(

okay okay forget it. what is the difference NYE with another night? just Thursday changed to Friday, right?

talking about 2010, my resolutions are jeng jeng. i wanna go on diet yeah just because my boy always calls me "disdut" errr :( then i wish i can pass NYE 2011 with him. pass this whole 2010 with him. entering petroleum engineering :)
amin amin.
simple resolution i guess :)

once again happy 2010 guys :*