survive

It's been almost the 8th months I'm being with my boyfriend. sweetness comes,sweetness go. that's what I named life. we don't know what will happen tommorow,but that all we know is we have to fight with it,whatever will happen someday.
and survival is the most needed of all our fighting. like I do.

I love someone and I survive with him no matter what he behaves,what he has done to me and how slurred. happiness will come in the end of all pains. keep survive,and i'll feel the sweet one.

each relationship must have problems. I have it in mine since I deal a relationship with him. Problem came,problem solved. I try to be tough in small case,but in big one,I'm smiling outside,dying inside. I ever thought to end it all,but my heart doen't want to. surviving is the way I take.

I have my own way of thinking.
treat your boyfriend as 6 years old boy. when he wakes up in the morning,he's with you. but in the morning till noon he plays with his life,his friends,his routinity. let him plays as much as he wants. don't give any prohibition to him. because in the end of everyday,in evening till night when he feels tired playing,he'll come back to you,looks at you,needs your bear hugs and your warm kisses.

happiness in the end must be mine.